Wordless Wednesday

Happy Birthday Sweet Sweet Hubby!

My lovable husband and daddy to these two amaizingly handsome little boys turned the big 27 yesterday! Happy Birthday Sweet Sweet Hubby!!!!

Our little family before dinner! The tripod works wonders!

My sweet boys and I!

This is what the hubby got for his birthday! He had bought this print well over a year ago, but we have never gotten it framed. I got it custom framed for him and it looks amazing!!! I let T pick out presents for his daddy and he got him a yellow motorcycle toy(he really wants his dad to have a motorcycle) and a book for his daddy to read to him at night!

It was a Super Soccer Saturday!!!!

Oh Super Soccer Saturday...how I will not miss you!

You see my husband who was an avid soccer player in highschool and college thought that our 3 year old needed to go ahead and start playing and that he would coach the team. So in February our family embarked on the journey of 3 and 4 yeard old soccer! T had his last game last Saturday and was I relieved!!!!

My adorable little sidekick Baby C and I before the game


T gearing up for the game by resting before the other kids get there


He may be small, but he gets in there


Look, Look, Look he is going to score!!!


Or not! The kids go the ball away from him and this is what the whole crowd got to see!


He had enough of soccer now time to play Army!

You see this is why I am done with Soccer! Until he asks us to play again, he will not partake in organized sports. He did not want his Daddy (the coach) playing with other kids so we had numerous meltdowns over that. He did not want to share his ball and so on and so on!

Seriously, who does this........

That would be my husband of course! I mean seriously who thinks that it would be a great idea to have a profession where you regularly jump out of perfectly good airplanes for a living? Who graduates college and then thinks, Oh man it would be really fun to have a job where once or twice a month I get all rigged up with my weapon and ruck and jump out of a plane at all hours of the day/night? I mean seriously! Yep, my husband and his co-workers/friends do this on a very regular basis.

Tonight Daddy C will embark on a night, combat equipment jump, essentially he will jump out of the perfectly good airplane with all equipment it would take to go directly into a combat situation. This morning when he left for work, I told him the usual, I love you, I will pray for a soft landing and that you do not get stuck in a tree or land in a creek bed. Besides my fellow RGR wives that read this blog, who can say that is what their husband does for a living?

I mean seriously who does that?

Wordless Wednesday

Gunfire in the morning....

I love it...I really really do! Wait, before you think I am totally nuts I shall explain.

I love living so close to Fort Benning, do I like Columbus, NO, but a girl must make do and I do love living so close to such a huge Army installation....it makes me feel so safe!

I love passing by Red Cloud range, on the way to take Tucker to school, and seeing the Bradleys, Strikers, Abrams tanks, etc firing....it makes me feel so safe!

I love walking Tucker into school and hearing the firing from the AMU pistol range right up the road....I feel so safe!

I love walking the track next to the Ranger Memorial and hearing the gun fire from the big gun range across the street....I feel so safe!

I love walking the track next to the Ranger Memorial and looking over to the memorial knowing that those amazing Rangers gave their lives for my boys and I to feel so safe!

I love being on post and seeing all of the men and women in uniform...I feel so safe!

I still get tears in my eyes when I see the new privates, freshly graduated from BCT, walking hand in hand with their wives/fiances/girlfriends/flavor of the week it reminds me of that time 5 years ago when I walked hand in hand with my freshly graduated private husband in the same exact place.

I love looking out of my window and seeing my very own Ranger pull up in the driveway, open our front door, lay down his beret and take of his boots after a long day....I feel so safe!

Sub-par

Do you ever just feel sub-par? Like you can not meet everyone's expectations of you? I have these 2 amazing little boys that rely on me for everything, I mean how can they not, afterall they are only 3 and 3 months. Yet, I always feel that I fall short of what they are expecting of me. I have a husband whom is never able to be around due to his job. Therefore I am the sole provider for my children's needs most of the days. I never have time for myself, which I believe is very important to be a proper provider for your children. I am not asking for a day away but simply an hour would be nice...come on an hour, that is all I am asking for. However I do not get this hour that I so desperately need to rejuvinate myself and come back fully ready to take on my 2 sweet little boys again. I do not know how to get these feeling of inadequacy to go away. I know my boys are well taken care of and happy little dudes at that, but I have to give everything I have everyday to make sure that they feel that way. I just do not see how me being so run down is going to be good for these two little guys in the end!

I need to find a way to get to a happy medium in all of this. I am trying but feel I keep on hitting walls. I am tired, I am grumpy, I am angry at the husband, I want to cry, but I can't because my 3 year old sits on my lap and I would not want to upset him!

So here I sit....feeling...sub-par!